Ahhh, What I wonderful day today is huh? It was warm and I only had to wear two jackets today! :]. Today was okay. So many different things have been happening, it’s crazy. Losing people left and right. Shit talkers won’t step up. It’s annoying and I reallly don’t know how much more I can handle. There is no where to vent.. and tumblr is like my great escape. Like, some things; like love<3. How the hell am I suppose to know what it is? I miss someone so much, he wouldn’t even understand the agony I go through when I’m missing him. But, how much longer can alll of this go on? Always trying to talk to someone who doesnt want anything to do with you? How much does that person expect you to try until you just.. can’t. No one would really understand unlesss they’ve been through it. Your like texting them and calling them but they blow you off.. like your nothing. &nd its like, How can you just ignore me like this? Do you see how much I want you, how much I need you in my life? Or, when it’s someone you like; but they don’t know. You’ve tried to drop hints here and there but they’re still blind. They say how they want someone, how they’re looking for love. But, how can you look when the person who loves you the most is standing right there in front of you? ♥

Ah, the status? Yes, this girl is currently single. Just recentlyy broke up with her boyfriend; but she would love a new boofriend <3. She’s lonely and juss’ needs a guy who’ll treat her right &nd with respectttt. ya diggg? kellly here has no time for players and is looooking for the real thing. she needs to meet someone who’s worth her time and who’llll rock her worldd. kelly need a guy who’ll be with her through everything; always be there for her. a guy who’ll never leave her and won’t listen to the haters. she need a guy who’ll give her only the realest love and make her happy all the time. give her those silly butterflies everytime they kiss &nd hugg. Kelly really needs a guy who’ll stay up late with her on the phone on her worst nightsss. remind her all the time how beautiful she is … inside and out. a guy that’lll shower her in hugs && kissess. she needs a guy who’ll be there on her worstest days & never make her cry. a guy that’ll just be happy being  near her. she needs a guy who’ll just wrap her in his arms and tell her he loves her. she needs a guy who’ll tell her constantly how he admires her; who’ll always tell her he loves her. a guy who’ll hold her tight when shes upset.  &nd this guy has to pick her over all the other girls. tell her jokes. bring her flowers just because. hold her hand. sing to her no matter how awful he sounds .. push her on the swings; tell her shes beautiful. kiss her in the rain.

if anyone can find him; send him my way. i’m getting tired of waiting < /3.

— phuong hacked kellys tumblr shietz.

I mean .. it’s like wth kelly? move on &nd act like the mature girl you are. But damn it, I can’t . I look at it and I still cry .. and I still get that feeling where I need him so bad. And I swear, he was in my dream last night. I mean .. guys have held me before .. but in that dream, it so tight .. and reasurring. And, lord, is it killing me. I get that he’s happy &nd he’s life .. is probably the best right now. But .. would it kill him .. just to make me a little happy? With just a simple hello .. just to let me know that i’m not completely invisible in his life. Yeah right, That’s way to much to ask for.

I’m done updating .. just once in a while .. theres no point when nobody read it.